So here goes…my very first blog. And I have NO clue what I’m doing! Kind of like my life I guess…that’s why I decided to name my blog “just figuring it out.” Most days that is all I am doing, just a fly by the seat of my pants kind of deal. I guess a formal introduction should make it a little easier to understand what I’m talking about so here goes:
My name is Hillary; I am a 27 year old woman of many roles…wife, mother, daughter, Christian, friend, nurse practitioner, youth worker, etc. I have been married for 7 glorious years (yes, it really has been great, no sarcasm intended!) and just as my husband and I start to figure out the marriage thing we decide it would be nice to add a baby to our family of me, hubby, and our dog Murphy. Well, six months ago our daughter Faith arrived. It was the best day of my life! There are no words to describe the feeling of holding your very own child for the first time with your husband beside you, knowing you are about to embark on the greatest, scariest challenge of all-time.
So fast forward six months and here we are. And I still feel clueless. Yes, I have become a pro at diaper changing, nursing, soothing, and the day-to-day routine of motherhood. But what everyone failed to mention are the details…the emotional rollercoaster ride I’d be on, how attached I’d feel to my child, how guilty I’d feel for working or having to spend time apart, how I’d question every decision I make, how much I worry now over mostly things I have no control over. So I just figure it out as I go.
Mainly the reason I’ve decided to blog is because I have so many thoughts running through my mind that I need an outlet for. But then as I log on, I’m overwhelmed by all the gadgets, widgets, dashboards, etc. It was a feat in itself that I managed to set up my profile! So, again, just figuring it out as I go.
Figuring things out as I go along is my new theme I suppose. It’s working and I’m not messing with it.
What things do you “figure out” as you go?